Sunday, August 11, 2013

Why am at the beginning again?

When I started writing my blog 4 years ago, my goal was the same, but my reasons and the path I chose had some differences.  Back then I was struggling to maintain a career filled with men and women more than half my age and I wanted to look more attractive at work.

The path I chose was Lap Band Weight Loss Surgery.  Here is a reprint of that first post:

Thursday, September 3, 2009

My new life journey

On July 26, 2009, i turned 50! OMG, I hate thinking it, I hate saying it and I'm damn sure that I don't want to look it!

I have fought weight loss battles all my life. I have ridden the rollercoaster of losing weight.....gaining it back.....losing it again...and each time I promised myself that I would NOT gain it back because it was soooo difficult to lose it. I have had a tummy tuck and now I'm taking one more drastic step to avoid hereditary diabetes...............LAP-BAND

I have started a liquid protein diet Sept 1st in preparation for surgery Sept.l5th

 
Ten months later I had lost weight and began maintenance.  

 
 
 
I started having acid reflux issues with my Lap-Band and today I am very near the same weight I started with.    What happened?   The answer in a nutshell is I stopped.   I stopped caring about eating healthy.  I stopped being active.  I stopped blogging.  I stopped being accountable for my actions. 
 
For those considering Lap-Band, please don't be discouraged!  There are many patients who had wonderful results without any complications.  But I relied so heavily on my Lap-Band that I stopped taking responsibility for my own life.  The Lap-Band is just a tool to help you feel full on less food.  You still have to make good food choices and you still have to stay active!
 
My reasons for losing weight today have changed.  My Mother died from diabetes complications.  She smoked heavily, was sedentary and ate all the rich unhealthy Cajun food she could get her hands on.  She had her leg amputated and basically gave up on living afterwards.  My older sister has started down the exact same path.  She lives the same unhealthy lifestyle and had her leg amputated this year.
 
I am fighting for my life and my future with my children and Grandchildren.  The alternative to making these changes in my life is the same dead end road where my sister finds herself today.   Maybe the answer will be the Sleeve, maybe the answer will be healthy eating and activity.  Maybe it will be something I haven't tried or will do in addition to the changes I have started.   I will keep fighting for my future, whatever that will take.
 
 

11 comments:

  1. Dee - for your sake and for those who love and care about you, I hope you get your priorities straightened out. Wishing you good decision making going forward:)

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    1. Thank you Mark...I can always tell when I am making poor choices, I shy away from the scale & blogging

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  3. Good for you.....for not giving up!

    XO

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    1. The consequences for giving up are unthinkable .... There is no finish line in this journey

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  4. Oh Dee! I am so right there with you! I don't have grandchildren yet but I am 51 and feel the exact same way you did! My brother died of diabetes complications. I'll pass on that thanks! Good luck and I'll be checking back with you!

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    1. I'm not going to die like that without a fight ;)

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  5. I am EXACTLY the same way. When I dropped out of blogging life, I gained 30 pounds. Accountability. We are here for you!!!

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    1. Blogging has been one of the best dieting tools I have Beth!

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  6. Do not give up! You did it before and you'll do it again!

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    1. Thank you Jacquie, I am still doing the steps for sleeve, but I'm going to keep going with or without it :)

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