As I write this new post, I am feeling very deflated. When I was banded in Sept 2009, I thought my "dieting" days were gone. No more weighing, counting etc. etc. Today's reality doesn't believe that dream and there is no such easy road in my present or future for that matter.
I have not been in that "green zone" in 9 months. For those who are not familiar with lap bands, it means your fills are such that you do not feel hunger/snack between meals and you are full with approximately one cup of food. Every time I get the smallest of fills, reflux and night coughs send me back to my doctor's to have it removed. I have had every test, there is nothing wrong with the band. I had a fill appointment today with my very favorite NP. She listens and I believe she truly cares for her patients. We have become quite close. I expressed my discontent and frustration for the band and my wish that I had chosen either bypass or the sleeve. Her response was that she no longer recommends the band to patients, in fact, she works very hard to steer new patients away from it. The number of her patients who are experiencing the same as I is too high. When the lapband is working correctly, it is a miracle, keeping it adjusted properly is similar to walking a tightrope for me.
She gave me the smallest of fill I requested, .4cc. I have made the personal decision that if I experience the reflux or other complications which cause me to have another unfill. I'm done. No more office visits, no more adjustments, I will live with what I have.
I am now back to basics. Of course, If I had success with any of my pre-band diets, it was always short lived. My goal here is stay on the path to healthy choices. Fresh vegetables and fruit, more fish, low carb-high proteins. Back to basics will also means measuring and keeping a food log again, something I never thought I would have to do after the lapband.
HYDRATION: 60 oz so far
HEALTHY EATING/CALORIES: My goal is <1000 calories & at least one fruit per day.
Breakfast: mushroom/reduced fat cheese omelet w/turkey bacon
Snack: Isopure Alpine Punch drink
Lunch: prescriptfit choc protein shake, w 1t peanut butter
Dinner: mushie kidney beans/w brown rice
FITNESS: My goal is at least 3x week strength training, one hour of physical activity per day
None yet, but I do plan to walk about Supper
MY TIME: My goal is at least an hour a day of alone/my time. Spent crying on my NP shoulder today ;)