Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Thank you everyone!

Yesterday, I was as discouraged  as I have ever been in this journey.  I poured out my heart in my post and all of your words of encouragement were very uplifting.  I am trying very hard to baby this new fill.  While my doctor has never given any specific post fill requirements, I am going to go very VERY slow starting today.  This morning was my smaller than usual cup of Jo, followed by a protein shake.  Lunch will be the same.  Tonight I will try a mushie.  I will eat supper earlier than usual to give as much time as possible before bed.  I have Tums and Nexium handy and will use at the first sign of reflux.  So far all I feel is pleasant restriction, ahhhhhh!

Several bloggers suggested revision to the Sleeve and believe me, if it were possible I would have done so already.  Unfortunately, I have lost enough weight with the band that I no longer qualify for WLS with my insurance company.  Since I am now retired, the finances are not there for self-pay.  Sooooo, it is what it is.  Whatever I can get out of my band is all there will be.

Thank you!  Thank you! Thank you!  My Hubby has been very supportive of my weightloss efforts, but he has not been banded and I get that look from him occasionally that says maybe I should give up on fills/unfills and just do it the "his" way.  He has so much willpower!

HYDRATION: 20 oz so far

HEALTHY EATING/CALORIES: My goal is <1000 calories & at least one fruit per day.

Breakfast: Isopure Alpine Punch drink

Snack: PrescriptFit Chocolate protein shake, w 1t peanut butter




FITNESS: My goal is at least 3x week strength training, one hour of physical activity per day

Swimming laps, 1 hour.

MY TIME: My goal is at least an hour a day of alone/my time.  Spent planning a Vegas trip with my wonderful hubby

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Back to the basics...

As I write this new post, I am feeling very deflated.  When I was banded in Sept 2009, I thought my "dieting" days were gone.  No more weighing, counting etc. etc.  Today's reality doesn't believe that dream and there is no such easy road in my present or future for that matter.

I have not been in that "green zone" in 9 months.  For those who are not familiar with lap bands, it means your fills are such that you do not feel hunger/snack between meals and you are full with approximately one cup of food.  Every time I get the smallest of fills, reflux and night coughs send me back to my doctor's to have it removed.  I have had every test, there is nothing wrong with the band.  I had a fill appointment today with my very favorite NP.  She listens and I believe she truly cares for her patients.  We have become quite close.  I expressed my discontent and frustration for the band and my wish that I had chosen either bypass or the sleeve.  Her response was that she no longer recommends the band to patients, in fact, she works very hard to steer new patients away from it.  The number of her patients who are experiencing the same as I is too high.  When the lapband is working correctly, it is a miracle, keeping it adjusted properly is similar to walking a tightrope for me.

She gave me the smallest of fill I requested, .4cc.  I have made the personal decision that if I experience the reflux or other complications which cause me to have another unfill.  I'm done.  No more office visits, no more adjustments, I will live with what I have. 

I am now back to basics.  Of course, If I had success with any of my pre-band diets, it was always short lived.  My goal here is stay on the path to healthy choices.  Fresh vegetables and fruit, more fish, low carb-high proteins.  Back to basics will also means measuring and keeping a food log again, something I never thought I would have to do after the lapband.

HYDRATION: 60 oz so far

HEALTHY EATING/CALORIES: My goal is <1000 calories & at least one fruit per day.

Breakfast: mushroom/reduced fat cheese omelet w/turkey bacon

Snack: Isopure Alpine Punch drink

Lunch:  prescriptfit choc protein shake, w 1t peanut butter

Snack: None

Dinner: mushie kidney beans/w brown rice

FITNESS: My goal is at least 3x week strength training, one hour of physical activity per day

None yet, but I do plan to walk about Supper

MY TIME: My goal is at least an hour a day of alone/my time.  Spent crying on my NP shoulder today ;)

Monday, August 8, 2011

On the health life road..

I awoke this morning with a renewed determination to get back on the path to my healthier lifestyle.  My band and I are at a standoff at the moment.  I am definitely not in the green zone, but the last few attempts at fills ended with reflux and subsequent unfills.  If this is as much help as I will get from my band then I will have to live with that, but I will be disappointed.  I have had everything checked and there is nothing  amiss as far as band placement and functioning.  I have an appointment tomorrow to try the tiniest of fills (.1) to give me some hunger relief, but this will be the LAST attempt.  If I end up with another unfill, I will raise the white flag and work with what I have, which is better than no help at all.

  After my morning cup of Jo and a bottle of water, I headed to the pool.  Afterwards, I came home, drank another bottle of water and headed to the gym to do some weight training.  A good start for the day/

HYDRATION: My goal is 64 oz per day, I am 1/3 way already, this goal will be met

HEALTHY EATING/CALORIES:  My goal is <1000 calories & at least one fruit per day.

Breakfast: greek yogurt, 1/8 t honey,1/2 banana, handful blueberries

Snack: Isopure Alpine Punch drink

Lunch:  V8 Vegetable Garden Soup

Snack: cereal/2% milk, 1 sl whole wheat bread, peanut butter

Dinner: Brown rice w/zucchini & shrimp in homegrown tomato sauce, 1 glass white wine

FITNESS:  My goal is at least 3x week strength training, one hour of physical ativity per day

Swimming laps: 45 mins
Strength Training: legs

MY TIME:  My goal is at least an hour a day of alone/my time.  Anything Goes, but I hope to get in some reading/gardening/chick flick time here

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Pause,Reflect. Replan

Todays Weight:  176

I have taken a wrong turn off my roadmap to a healthier lifestyle.

I stopped blogging, stopped logging and all around STOPPED everything. 

My life has changed directions in many ways since I started this journey.  I retired from my job, my daughter & granddaughters have moved on their own and for the first time since I was a kid, I have no boundaries, no rules, no structure in my life.  There is no alarm clock, no boss, no rush hour to beat.  All good things but I didn't prepare myself for this newfound freedom, I didn't make a plan.

So this morning is about making a rough draft.  After working my entire adult life, the one thing I DO NOT plan to do, is alarm setting, my alarm clock was permanently trashed on my retirement day and will NOT be returning.  So I can only make rough drafts for mornings, because I wake up....when I wake up..period.

My very basic plan includes accountability and awareness.  Blogging is important in this area because it keeps my aware and focused.  Each day Iwill report these areas on blog:

HEALTHY EATING/CALORIES (<1000 works best for me)

These are minimal goals for now which I will change as time goes on.

As for today, My youngest granddaughter is having her birthday party today and it will involve pizza, planning here is crucial.  Pizza has always been a "red light" food for me.  In my unhealthy days, I could eat 1/2 pizza before without taking a breath. My main plan is to keep a bottle of water in my hand constantly and to concentrate on the socializing (hard to stuff food in your mouth if I'm talking!)

How do you handle kiddie functions ?

Wish me luck!