Sunday, May 23, 2010

goals

When I first began on this journey, I didn't have a clue where I wanted it to lead me.  Now as I am visiting fitting rooms and enjoying shopping again, I have narrowed my goal weight down.  It has never been my goal to be skinny, I always just wanted to be healthy.  For me that may be overweight on some BMI charts, but I have to do what I think looks best on my own body.  I am over 50, I have no desire to be too thin, I don't think it looks attractive on women my age because our wrinkles appear more noticeable.  Also, I do not want to always be tightly restricted.  I want to be able to experiment with fills so that I can eat some healthy foods that are totally off limits to me now due to Pb's (Fresh fruit, salads & chicken are a few).

After reaching my goal, I want to change my attention away from weight loss to strength training to tone my legs and arms more.

So now here I am, less than 20lbs from what I consider to be my goal.  I do reserve the right to adjust it lower or higher depending on how I look as it gets closer.  For the first time since I began this journey, my dream of living in 9/10 sizes seems possible.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Peace

I haven't blogged in a while now, life has been getting in the way.  Today, I noticed I reached one of my goals, which was to reach a BMI of 29.  I am no longer considered obese, just plain overweight.  My weightloss has slowed and now I look for confirmation of my progress in small ways :)

Another thing that I have noticed at this place in my journey.  Weightloss and dieting are no longer at the top of my thoughts.  Days and weeks go by now without stress over my weight.  I certainly try to stay active and as long as I am not slumped on the couch watching television, I consider myself active now.  Staying active means enjoying my new life.  Running and playing with the kids, walks with my husband, even cleaning closets!  I no longer have to keep track of what I am eating.  My band will not let me overeat.  I know that if I want that piece of cake, I have a small piece and eat it very slowly.  If I don't, a Pb is in my near future :)  I eat the same foods everyone else has.  I do add extra veggies because they are good for our entire family. 

I am at a good place with my band.  We have learned to co-exist together and life is good!

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Back to Reality

I am finally back from my three week cruise/vacation.  Hawaii was breathtaking of course, the two week cruise was the perfect getaway.  No computers, no cells, no tension.  I enjoyed a much needed exodus from life, we had eight "sea days" and I either walked on the track or did the elliptical in the gym during these days.  Port days in Hawaii were very physical with much walking and even hiking in Maui to a beautiful hidden waterfall. 


I did NOT diet in any way.  I ate whatever I wanted, just small portions.  I allowed myself my glass of wine each evening.  My restriction was unusually tight, which helped keep me in control.  One thing that disappointed me about my band though, the buffet was full of all these wonderfully fresh fruit; pineapple, bananas, kiwi......I love all of them, but each time I tried to eat them I got stuck and ended up pb'ng.  I sadly gave up on them.  Do any of you have any bad experiences with fresh fruit? If I can no longer eat fresh fruit, it will be awful for me because I am a huge fruit lover.  I hope it was just a matter of tighter than normal restriction :(

NOTE:  The best part?  I gained only 3 pounds!  3 pounds after a 2wk cruise of dining and drinking along with another week of beaches and restaurant food!  I already lost 2 of those pounds since being home.  Hopefully I will be back to where my pre-trip weight within the next couple days.