Friday, February 19, 2010

I want to thank Band-Babe For nominating me for the BB award. When I started my blog it was a way for me to keep myself accountable as I move along my new Healthier Lifestyle. It has become so much more than that. You guys give the best tips, prop me up when I feel like I am falling off my deep end and are just all around great peeps!

* Tell seven interesting things about yourself;

1. I am one of two females in my job place. My job is dominated by men, highly physical and for me at least it is very self-satisfying.

2. I am on husband #3, #1 was when I was barely 18yrs old and lasted less than a year, #2 was an abuser and #3 is the love of my life, my soulmate and we have been together over 20 yrs. Took me 3 times to get it right :)

3. I am a Hurricane Katrina refugee. I still have not been able to move back to hometown.

4. I had a tummy tuck in my 30's once I determined that I wanted no more children. Even with all the weight I gained over the years, that part of my belly never stored fat.

5. I am a cruise-a-holic, I love them!

6. I am a bonafide member of the Who DAT Nation!

7. I am a seller on Ebay. I resell my grandchildren's gently used clothing and toys and give the money to my daughter to buy what they need for the new season :)

Thursday, February 18, 2010

I spent the morning trying on swimsuits for my upcoming Hawaii trip. I got to say, no matter how much weight I have already lost, putting on a swim suit just screams at me how much further I have to go on this journey. I have dreaded swimsuit season every year. This year I hoped I would feel better about it and I may by the summer. But at this point in time it is still dayum depressing !!!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Move it

I am really having trouble with the exercise these days. I really need to give myself a pep talk here. I am doing great with my eating, keeping with 1/2 cup meals. I think a little exercise will help Mr. Scale in the right direction. I started out today with the right intentions, even packed my workout clothes in my car. I just didn't go :(

I think tonight I will do some wii step, that feels more like play to me :)

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Restriction gone :(

Since my too tight episode, I am not feeling anything from my band. No tightness with my first bite of food, no tightness to signal that I have had enough and above all no hunger pains in between meals. It's all very strange, but it scared me half to death. My doctor said to wait two weeks and they could try another small fill, but at this point I may just wait a little longer than that.

I NEVER want to go through being overfilled again. On the plus side, Mr. Scale has showed 2 lbs lost since my unfill.

Happy Mardi Gras everyone!

Sunday, February 14, 2010

He Giveth...He taketh back :(

I finally had to call my Doctor yesterday. The pain was just to much for me to take. I couldn't hold down anything, I was dry heaving. He took the whole .7cc fill i just got. Now I am back where i started before my fill, I felt better instantly He said I just need to let it settle down and then I can make another fill appt to put a little back in.

OMG I think that hurt more than the surgery to put the band in.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

too tight

My doctor doesn't give much post-fill instructions, usually just liquids until lunchtime the next day. I never had any problems until Friday, my fill was Wednesday morning. I cannot tolerate any solids whatsoever. Protein shakes take more than hour to drink. I realize that I need to go back for an unfill. The problem is that right now Mardi Gras is in full swing here and the city of New Orleans pretty much shuts down all next week. All schools are closed. I doubt my doc will be in his office until Wednesday. I am going to call him on Monday just to be sure. I can swallow and hold down water as long as I drink it very slowly just like protein shakes, so I do not think I am in danger of dehydration or an emergency visit. JUST HUNGRY LOL.

I hope to get them to do a small unfill Monday or Wednesday and I should be good. In the meantime I'm on liquids YUCK.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Real Food

One of the things that I hope to accomplish with the band is being able to eat NORMAL foods, just less of them. The keys being small portions/moderation. For supper I am trying to make my meals healthier not only for myself but the entire family. With occasional foods like pizza/ice cream that I know they crave.

Kids are like sponges, they mimic what we eat as long as I don't push it on them. The other day we picked up a rotisserie chicken from the Market and when I took my piece I started taking off the skin immediately. Brooke (10) loves to eat that stuff, Yuck. Anyway, I was explaining to Brooke (10) about how the fat that comes long with the skin and how it clogs up your heart..yada, yada, yada. Of course she just dismissed me. Paige (5) on the other hand, will not eat skin anymore! Apparently she soaked in my skin/fat/clogging up the heart story. I wasn't even aware that she was listening. LOL

After our supper, I pack leftovers in 1/2 cup plastic containers and put them away. Sometimes I put them in the fridge for lunch the next day or freeze them for lunch later on. It works out perfectly for me since I know exactly how much I am eating. In the morning I throw 2 of those little 1/2 containers in my lunch kit. I try to make it through the day with eating just one, if I find myself still hungry I will eat the other. When I can eat both containers (1 cup) of food for lunch and find myself still hungry, I know it's time to start thinking of a fill appt.

What is in your typical lunch?

Thursday, February 11, 2010

30 freakin lbs!

Apparently my new fill has gotten Mr.Scale's attention. This morning I reached my 30lb mark after being stuck @ 29lbs for 2 weeks. My next fill is on March 9th, but it would be awesome if I had to postpone it because my restriction is still tight :)

I am sooo happy this morning!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

WHO DAT! and Fill#5

It's finally here, my long awaited fill #5 is today. Not an ounce of scale movement in over two weeks now and I really hope this fill will start Mr. Scale in the right direction!

Also, Yesterday was our huge Victory Parade for our World Champion Saints! We just love Drew Brees, he is a great guy and very much a hottie in my book! The parade was absolutely awesome, so much fun. No city knows how to throw a party like Nawlinz :)

p.s. Had an interesting fill appt today. I met with my very favorite NP, I have seen her at my first post op appointment and I really like her. I was voicing my frustration at my slow weightloss. First, she reminded me that I am very early in my journey, just beginning actually. Then she told me a story about two of her patients who are sisters. One started at a low BMI (like me), the other started at a higher BMI. The higher BMI sister lost weight much quicker than the other and even passed her up. The lower BMI sister did get there, but for some reason her losses were less and happened a little slower. Bottom line, I am going to have to be patient and be content with slower progress, I will get to my goal. She gave me a .7 fill bringing me to 7.4 in my 10cc band. I will have to wait to see if it helps with my hunger :)

Monday, February 8, 2010

We are the champions.....

of the World.....WHO DAT!

p.s. would someone please send me a recap of the Biggest Loser Couples from last night, I unable to do the DVR and missed it due to our saints victory parade!

Saturday, February 6, 2010

1 day at a time

I used to love that show with Valerie Bertinelli, but now I think I am showing my age LOL.

~choices~ have been good so far today and I started my journal again. Funny how when I knew I had slid down the rabbit hole, I wouldn't journal it. But today, I looked at the calendar and realized I was only in that hole for a week, one week thats all! It felt like I had skipped exercise and made poor choices for 2 or more weeks.

~activity~ I did 30 mins of wii step today and felt really good about it :)

Friday, February 5, 2010

Battle lines

I am not losing again this week. But there is no mystery to my lack of weightloss. I haven't worked out in a week now. I have not made good food choices nor have I been keeping up with my journal. I am sticking my head in the sand, trying to play head games with myself. Do I really think that if I don't journal a poor food choice, that Mr. Scale won't notice it? I have done the same thing with all my previous weightloss attempts and Mr. Scale is just reflecting the lifestyle that I have led in the last two weeks. I am really stressing out right now for more than one reason. I am at the point in my weightloss where I am really wanting to give up again.
It's like there is a line drawn in the sand and success is on the other side, out of my reach. Were did all my commitment go? Where did all my resolve go? I can eat anything I want right now and pretty much as much of it as I want. I am not where I need to be in restriction yet. I am angry at myself that I need restriction to eat properly. I am even more angry at myself because I have dropped the ball on exercise and I know that I cannot get where I need to be without it. What if I am one of those people who will not be successful with the band?

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Over it

Ok, my very own pity party day is over. I am picking myself up by my bootstraps and moving on. I realized something yesterday, Mr. Scale may not have showed the loss that I hoped for, but he dayum sure didn't show a gain! Thank you Sally ,for those words of wisdom!

Monday, February 1, 2010

Familiar places

I find myself in a much too familiar spot in my road to be Healthy. I have lost 30,40 even 50 lbs over and over during my failed diet attempts of the past and gained it all back along with extra. Today I am at the point where throwing my hands up and regaining usually begins. After a week of eating healthy and working out, my scales has not budged an ounce. Now I realize that we will always hit plateaus in our journey, but come on! I just got over one that lasted a month! I looked over my journal yesterday and felt really good about my eating and my exercise.

Yesterday, my disappointment at the scale sent me into an all too familiar slippery slope of eating. I ate like 5 mini almond joys. I have not eaten chocolate since before my banding and I am surprised at just how easy it can be to regain weight with the band. I am fighting with everything i have inside me to get hold of myself and move on. I would like to say the band will not let me overeat, that is simply not true. It may not let me eat the volume that I could before, but it damn sure won't stop me from eating the comfort food I want so badly right now. Maybe 30 lbs is just all I am capable of losing, maybe 180 is the weight I am supposed to live my life at.