Thursday, December 31, 2009

Goodbye 2009, Hello New Me!

Well tonight I will say goodbye to a life changing year for me. This is the first New Years when "begin a diet" WON'T be on the list! There will be no more diets for me. I have made a lifestyle change that is permanent, no diet of the month for me this new years! I started my journey to join the band in January 2009. A friend did it and looked great so I went to a seminar not really knowing what to expect. My doctor answered all my questions, and at the end I knew it was for me. Of course, I had my share of hoops to go through for my insurance to pay. It took 9 months before they agreed and I was finally banded in September 2009.

Now I look ahead at all the possibilities in 2010 and I get excited about 2010. I have a different attitude, one of confidence and acknowledgement. I am not restricted enough to see the big weight loss yet but I KNOW I will reach my goal. I look forward to the restriction my friend Gen has in 2010. To experience her relief at not having food control her life anymore. With each fill, I take a little more control, exercise and healthy eating becomes more the norm than a obstacle.

I think of the summer in 2010 without dread but in anticipation. I am much more active now and look forward to being a participant instead of a spectator. I see myself in shorts and liking how I look in them. I see myself at the pool and not hiding under cover ups. I see myself playing ball with the kids instead of sitting in a chair watching. I would love to put on a pair of skates again, I used to love skating. I see myself riding the bike I bought three years ago that sits in my garage collecting dust.


Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Back on Track

Yesterday I did a great job getting back on track. My husband and I walked a 5k together, I do love our walks. It is a great stress reliever and allows us some time alone. My widowed daughter and two granddaughters are living with us and time alone does require some planning. I did better with my choices yesterday. My Loseit! app on my iPhone says that 1-1/2 hrs of housecleaning is equal to 267 calories burned! I never thought of housework as being exercise but I guess it is. It also states that 30 minutes of vacuuming burns 111 calories! So now cleaning house is my own little personal workout!

p.s. I haven't been eating much veggies since being banded, concentrating on getting the protein instead. Today I tried to eat some Birdseye Steamed Veggies in a bag..there was some carrots, water chestnuts and broccoli. The broccoli got stuck even though I took my time and really chewed it. Does anyone else have trouble with it after being banded?

Monday, December 28, 2009

Post Christmas

Our custom is not to remove our Christmas Tree until Kings Day. Today I began the task of removing all the other decorations. I am trying to get it all done before returning to work next week. I don't have to worry about exercise today, whew!

Santa brought us a Wii-Fit Plus. So far I have only done the step and it was fun. I didn't get much time with it because I would have to fight my kids for it. They love it! I also added the lose it! app onto my iPhone. It's kinda kewl. I use it to journal my foods and the next morning it posts my day to my food journal blog I setup.

New Years eve, we offer babysitting for our Grandchildren. They love having a little party of their very own. My husband and I setup goodies and entertain them, spending time with our granddaughters is our idea of an outstanding New Years!

Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas with the Band

Well, I honestly did pretty well through Christmas. Some restriction from the band stopped me several times from overeating. More than once I grabbed more than I should of the wrong thing or just too much of it. Only to feel that tightening in chest saying "Oh, no you don't!". I allowed myself a taste of this or that when I wanted and did not feel deprived. I feel alot more confidence in my decision to be banded after this first real test! Happy Holidays everyone!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Holiday Downer

Today, my youngest granddaughter had her H1N1 shot and a checkup. The doctor gave her the shot, she did great. Then he started checking her over. When he listened to her heart he became concerned. Then he checked it again. When he was done, he said he was hearing an irregular heartbeat. He called another Doctor to listen and he said he also heard it. Now I am really concerned. We have to bring her to be checked out by a Cardiologist. This news has taken alot of the party out of our Christmas. She is the youngest in our family and brings such joy to my heart. Please keep Paige in your prayers this Christmas!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Ahhh some restriction

It has been a real struggle making healthy choices during this very hectic holiday week. We had dinner tonight with my two granddaughters at their favorite Chinese restaurant. I think I did pretty good with my choices. Chicken, a little rice, seafood. I had 3 shrimp, a couple bites of rice and felt that tightening of my band. I pushed my plate away and sat for a minute to see if it would pass. It didn't so I excused myself and headed to the ladies room. I did PB, but just a little (because I stopped). I thought I was chewing the shrimp & chicken well, but I guess I need to get better at judging that stopping point. Maybe it was the rice? I have read posts from people who cannot do rice once they got some restriction.

I am happy to finally feel restriction, so I am certainly not complaining :)

Monday, December 21, 2009

My Third Fill

Today I went for my third fill. At first she gave me 2cc, which would have brought me up to 7cc. She had me drink my little cup of water and all went ok. I wished everyone Merry Christmas and left. I was walking to my car and all of a sudden I just started belching and then spitting over and over. I felt an uncomfortable tightness in my chest. I said to myself whoa this is different. I wasn't sure if this was a normal feeling for a good fill. After all, my first two fills had no effect on me, so I just wasn't sure. It is an hour drive to my doctor from my house so I just sat in my car and tried to swallow some bottled water. Every time I swallowed , it came back up (I really didn't want to let them take any of my fill). Now that I look back it was really silly, but I really wanted restriction so badly, I figured as long as I could get water down, I was going to leave.

Well I couldn't keep any water down, so reluctantly I went back in and told them I was too tight. I keep telling her, just take a little, just take a little, so ridiculous. Anyway, she ended up removing .8 and I felt better instantly. So now I have 6.2cc in my 10cc band.

I have been banded over 3 months now with still no restriction and I am getting impatient. Hopefully this one will give me some, My next appointment is 3 weeks out.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

1st Pb

Today was the first time I have Pb'd since being banded 3 months ago. What an awful and disgusting side effect! I definately do not want a repeat. I had barely eaten anything before I felt the tightness in my band and reminded myself to eat slower. I even got up and walked around a bit before trying to eat more, I was still hungry. Guess I should have just stopped. I started sliming and then Yuck!!

Live and Learn :(

P.S. I get my third fill tomorrow, to be honest I really haven't had that much restriction. Today was much tighter band than normal

Friday, December 18, 2009

Losing it High Tech

My husband is getting me an iPhone for Christmas to replace my Palm which is very old. I already found some great apps to add to it that would help me reach my goals. I found a great app that uses built-in GPS to log my walks/runs, it automatically records the speed/miles/times/calories and then creates a history of my workouts. I also found one that is specifically for strength training workouts that records each equipment, weight used and reps. And lastly I found an app called Losing it! which is a great food diary that automatically syncs with your online acct. I can't wait for Santa this year, I'm soo gonna upgrade my weight loss to 2.0 :)

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

I am so disappointed today :(

Today started out like every other day. I did my protein shake for breakfast and left the house with renewed determination to follow my diet. Then I let myself slide down the wrong path. The easy thing would have been to not post to my blog today and pretend it didn't happen, but I am not going to do that either. I am trying to take a look at why it happened so maybe I can change my behavior.

First off, I had to do lunch early today, around 10:30am (my job is just unpredictable like that). Then I had a little free time and stopped off to do a little Christmas shopping and bought a box of 100 calorie almonds. But instead of eating 1 pack, I ate 3! Almonds and nuts in general are just a red light food for me, I can eat nuts like there is no tomorrow. Now that was bad enough, but later I ate 5 boneless BBQ wings.. Now I am actually sitting here miserable and feeling angry at myself for being so weak.

I think the protein shakes are just not enough for me anymore, the do not keep me full and by lunch I was starving. Now granted I did keep to about one cup at lunch. Tomorrow I will try to do better.

Here are some things I will try to correct.

1~ protein shakes are out for now, unless they serve as a snack.
2~ I am going to begin packing my lunch again (I have gotten away from that)
3~ I am going to make myself eat every 3 hours to keep my energy up
4~ I will bring one bag of almonds with me as a snack and leave the rest at home.
5~ Increase my water by at least 2 bottles tomorrow

Monday, December 14, 2009

Christmas in New Orleans

Over the weekend, I played tourist in New Orleans with my granddaughters. We first visited a beautiful life size gingerbread house built inside the Ritz.

You could walk through the house and the walls were icing and decorated with candies. The outside of the house was real gingerbread paneling.
The books on the bookcase were made of chocolate. My girls were understandably in awe that they were inside a real life honest to goodness gingerbread house. LOL

We visited an area called Miracle on Fulton Street where they have beautifully decorated trees, reindeer to feed and New Orleans style snow (bubbles falling through blowers).

Then we rode the streetcar uptown to the Garden District to view the magnificent homes decorated for the holidays. What a sight they were! We purposely stayed in the downtown/uptown areas. My girls have lived 4 years now with nightmares and everyday reminders of losing their homes. I wanted to be sure to avoid all the desolate areas. Many areas on New Orleans are still ghost towns filled with abandoned flooded homes.

We ate at one of our favorite local restaurants. One thing about Cajun food, there are very little choices that are healthy. Our menus are filled with rich sauces, fried foods and starches. I finally settled on a seafood pasta and when it arrived, I could only eat a few bites of seafood before I felt that restriction tightening inside my chest. I pushed the plate away and didn't think about food the rest of the evening. I was able to order like everyone else, I just ate less. What a wonderfully liberating experience!

p.s. My exercising has all but stopped. I realize my losses will not come without the exercise, but I cannot seem to get myself to the gym. I need to work out!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Monday blahs

I am fighting a chest cold this week and can't take the huge pills. I have to take the liquids and they are so full of sugar! I haven't lost or gained anything just sitting at same number on the scale. I am journaling my food everyday now, but not exercising until I get rid of the congestion in my chest. Last night my band felt so tight that I could only eat a couple bites, I wonder if mucus can cause band restriction?

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Is this the way the band works?

Yesterday, I had a very hectic day. I ate breakfast and drank a protein shake for lunch because I was rushed. Went to a funeral and then straight to a wedding without a chance to eat anything for dinner. At the wedding reception, those food trays started circulating. First, let me say that the protein shake really lasted much longer than usual, this was 6-7 hours later. I tried to survey the foods that were available and found two soups. Remember we are cajun! lol One was gumbo and the second was a seafood bisque with shrimp and crab. I choose the seafood bisque and began eating it slowly, being careful to chew, chew,chew the shrimp. I ended up eating about 1/3 of a small bowl. Afterwards I tried a few things here and there, taking time to chew. It was not long before I felt this tightening in my chest. I was so afraid I was going to have my first pb/sliming. I stopped eating and by the time the evening was over it was gone. Social situations where you are distracted are very difficult times to hear that band when it's telling me to stop, I am glad I did hear it!

Is this how the band is supposed to work? Is that tightening feeling its way of saying stop or slow down? Is it the band that gave me that full feeling for so many hours after my protein shake? I would love to hear from you experienced banders !

P.S. I had a wonderful NSV last night. Family who had not seen me since banding were so complimentary about my weightloss! I am a long way from my goal weight but lately with Mr. Scale is being so stubborn! Their comments renewed my commitment this morning!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Yes Santa, I was a Good Girl today

I had one of the best days of my healthy lifestyle to date! I started food journaling today, that was a huge step for me. I hope it gets easier as time goes on. I made good food choices, drank more than enough water and exercised. I must admit, I like the feeling! My newly found restriction is already starting to fade. I called my doctors office and moved my next fill appointment up to 3 weeks out. With the holidays I need to utilize all the tools available!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009


I have recently surrendered to the fact that I need to commit to Journaling to complete my transition to a healthier lifestyle. I am a food addict and I need to utilize every tool available to me. I read recently: The August 2008 issue of the American Journal of Preventive Medicine, published about a powerful tool people can use to lose weight. Dieters in the study who used it lost twice as much weight. That tool is a food journal. Fellow blogger, Sally's Journal has already discovered this tool and contributes much her success with her lapband to her journaling.

What should I include in my journal? Here is a list for me to start with:

1) food quantities (ok I'm going to do some measuring, at least for a time)
2) measurements, maybe once a week
3) my moods, (stressed,hurried,angry,depressed etc)
4) my exercise

I am committed to doing everything I can to overcome this terrible addiction.

I would be very interested in your thoughts on journaling. Do you journal? What do you record in it? Is it helpful to you?

p.s. I do not have a desk job and I am very mobile during the day. I decided to make use of my smartphone and I started a separate blog to use as my journal, I can sent posts to it from my phone and update it whenever I need it. Wish me luck!

Finally some movement!

Mr. Scale has finally budged since my recent fill. Of course, I do realize that having to stay on liquids, then mushies has definitely helped. The -2 pounds has given me a renewed commitment. I was really feeling frustrated and helpless. Last week for Thanksgiving, I didn't make 100% good choices, but it was not like my pre-banded days either. I didn't gain and that was a victory to me!

Now that I have some restriction, I am trying to make more effort to stay on course. I haven't exercised in a week, so today I went into the gym, did 15 mins on the elliptical and 35 mins/2miles on treadmill @ 3.5. I have slowed up a little on my speed since I skipped a week. I drank my protein shake one hour before and sipped a bottle of water during my exercise.

I have noticed some differences in what I can eat. Yesterday, I had a small individual honey flavored Greek yogurt and I was full until lunch. I had a protein shake for lunch and that lasted until dinner. Dinner was 1/2 cup tuna salad, I had an evening snack of 1/2 indiv cottage cheese. Wow what a difference. I spent the day running to and from appts and that keep me from thinking about head hunger.

Protein shakes are not good to stay on long term, but they are great meal replacements when I am rushed and don't have time to sit and chew my food properly. Besides some of them are yummy and feeds my chocolate fetish! lol