Monday, October 12, 2009
Preparation and Planning
Yesterday I had the most challenging day I have had since being banded. I attended a birthday party 90 minutes from home for my granddaughter. It was held at one of those children party centers and I failed horribly. In my pre-banded days, I would have let it turn into a reason to give up all together and gain back all the 20 lbs I lost and more.
Instead, I am going to try to live and learn, pick myself up and work through the hurdle. I started out doing well, I had a healthy breakfast. I was told there was a little concession stand so I figured I could find something, even if it was just a hamburger patty or salad. WRONG! Only food there were hot dogs, nachos, white bread sandwiches loaded with mayo. I did buy some water and tried sipping it all day. We left home at 10am and now it's 2pm and I'm starving. Finally all my willpower died and ate 8 *1/4* finger sandwiches, which in itself wouldn't have been entirely bad, but of course I let myself have a piece of birthday cake, granted it was a smaller piece than I normally would have taken. I did no exercises yesterday either.
I beat myself up about overeating the entire 90 minute drive home, refused to eat dinner, took a xanax and went to sleep. I was miserable.
How the hell am I going to make it through 3 wks of vacationing if I cannot control myself at a one day outing? I am trying to learn from it and be better prepared the next time. Maybe pack a protein shake and some veggies in a small lunch bag. Next time I go to a child's birthday party, I will go with the assumption there will be no healthy foods and bring my own!
Today is another day and I have determined NOT to let yesterday send me into a eating binge.