Thursday, December 31, 2009

Goodbye 2009, Hello New Me!


Well tonight I will say goodbye to a life changing year for me. This is the first New Years when "begin a diet" WON'T be on the list! There will be no more diets for me. I have made a lifestyle change that is permanent, no diet of the month for me this new years! I started my journey to join the band in January 2009. A friend did it and looked great so I went to a seminar not really knowing what to expect. My doctor answered all my questions, and at the end I knew it was for me. Of course, I had my share of hoops to go through for my insurance to pay. It took 9 months before they agreed and I was finally banded in September 2009.

Now I look ahead at all the possibilities in 2010 and I get excited about 2010. I have a different attitude, one of confidence and acknowledgement. I am not restricted enough to see the big weight loss yet but I KNOW I will reach my goal. I look forward to the restriction my friend Gen has in 2010. To experience her relief at not having food control her life anymore. With each fill, I take a little more control, exercise and healthy eating becomes more the norm than a obstacle.

I think of the summer in 2010 without dread but in anticipation. I am much more active now and look forward to being a participant instead of a spectator. I see myself in shorts and liking how I look in them. I see myself at the pool and not hiding under cover ups. I see myself playing ball with the kids instead of sitting in a chair watching. I would love to put on a pair of skates again, I used to love skating. I see myself riding the bike I bought three years ago that sits in my garage collecting dust.

WELCOME 2010, I AM READY FOR YOU!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Back on Track

Yesterday I did a great job getting back on track. My husband and I walked a 5k together, I do love our walks. It is a great stress reliever and allows us some time alone. My widowed daughter and two granddaughters are living with us and time alone does require some planning. I did better with my choices yesterday. My Loseit! app on my iPhone says that 1-1/2 hrs of housecleaning is equal to 267 calories burned! I never thought of housework as being exercise but I guess it is. It also states that 30 minutes of vacuuming burns 111 calories! So now cleaning house is my own little personal workout!

p.s. I haven't been eating much veggies since being banded, concentrating on getting the protein instead. Today I tried to eat some Birdseye Steamed Veggies in a bag..there was some carrots, water chestnuts and broccoli. The broccoli got stuck even though I took my time and really chewed it. Does anyone else have trouble with it after being banded?

Monday, December 28, 2009

Post Christmas

Our custom is not to remove our Christmas Tree until Kings Day. Today I began the task of removing all the other decorations. I am trying to get it all done before returning to work next week. I don't have to worry about exercise today, whew!

Santa brought us a Wii-Fit Plus. So far I have only done the step and it was fun. I didn't get much time with it because I would have to fight my kids for it. They love it! I also added the lose it! app onto my iPhone. It's kinda kewl. I use it to journal my foods and the next morning it posts my day to my food journal blog I setup.

New Years eve, we offer babysitting for our Grandchildren. They love having a little party of their very own. My husband and I setup goodies and entertain them, spending time with our granddaughters is our idea of an outstanding New Years!

Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas with the Band

Well, I honestly did pretty well through Christmas. Some restriction from the band stopped me several times from overeating. More than once I grabbed more than I should of the wrong thing or just too much of it. Only to feel that tightening in chest saying "Oh, no you don't!". I allowed myself a taste of this or that when I wanted and did not feel deprived. I feel alot more confidence in my decision to be banded after this first real test! Happy Holidays everyone!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Holiday Downer


Today, my youngest granddaughter had her H1N1 shot and a checkup. The doctor gave her the shot, she did great. Then he started checking her over. When he listened to her heart he became concerned. Then he checked it again. When he was done, he said he was hearing an irregular heartbeat. He called another Doctor to listen and he said he also heard it. Now I am really concerned. We have to bring her to be checked out by a Cardiologist. This news has taken alot of the party out of our Christmas. She is the youngest in our family and brings such joy to my heart. Please keep Paige in your prayers this Christmas!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Ahhh some restriction

It has been a real struggle making healthy choices during this very hectic holiday week. We had dinner tonight with my two granddaughters at their favorite Chinese restaurant. I think I did pretty good with my choices. Chicken, a little rice, seafood. I had 3 shrimp, a couple bites of rice and felt that tightening of my band. I pushed my plate away and sat for a minute to see if it would pass. It didn't so I excused myself and headed to the ladies room. I did PB, but just a little (because I stopped). I thought I was chewing the shrimp & chicken well, but I guess I need to get better at judging that stopping point. Maybe it was the rice? I have read posts from people who cannot do rice once they got some restriction.

I am happy to finally feel restriction, so I am certainly not complaining :)

Monday, December 21, 2009

My Third Fill

Today I went for my third fill. At first she gave me 2cc, which would have brought me up to 7cc. She had me drink my little cup of water and all went ok. I wished everyone Merry Christmas and left. I was walking to my car and all of a sudden I just started belching and then spitting over and over. I felt an uncomfortable tightness in my chest. I said to myself whoa this is different. I wasn't sure if this was a normal feeling for a good fill. After all, my first two fills had no effect on me, so I just wasn't sure. It is an hour drive to my doctor from my house so I just sat in my car and tried to swallow some bottled water. Every time I swallowed , it came back up (I really didn't want to let them take any of my fill). Now that I look back it was really silly, but I really wanted restriction so badly, I figured as long as I could get water down, I was going to leave.

Well I couldn't keep any water down, so reluctantly I went back in and told them I was too tight. I keep telling her, just take a little, just take a little, so ridiculous. Anyway, she ended up removing .8 and I felt better instantly. So now I have 6.2cc in my 10cc band.

I have been banded over 3 months now with still no restriction and I am getting impatient. Hopefully this one will give me some, My next appointment is 3 weeks out.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

1st Pb

Today was the first time I have Pb'd since being banded 3 months ago. What an awful and disgusting side effect! I definately do not want a repeat. I had barely eaten anything before I felt the tightness in my band and reminded myself to eat slower. I even got up and walked around a bit before trying to eat more, I was still hungry. Guess I should have just stopped. I started sliming and then Yuck!!

Live and Learn :(

P.S. I get my third fill tomorrow, to be honest I really haven't had that much restriction. Today was much tighter band than normal

Friday, December 18, 2009

Losing it High Tech

My husband is getting me an iPhone for Christmas to replace my Palm which is very old. I already found some great apps to add to it that would help me reach my goals. I found a great app that uses built-in GPS to log my walks/runs, it automatically records the speed/miles/times/calories and then creates a history of my workouts. I also found one that is specifically for strength training workouts that records each equipment, weight used and reps. And lastly I found an app called Losing it! which is a great food diary that automatically syncs with your online acct. I can't wait for Santa this year, I'm soo gonna upgrade my weight loss to 2.0 :)

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

I am so disappointed today :(

Today started out like every other day. I did my protein shake for breakfast and left the house with renewed determination to follow my diet. Then I let myself slide down the wrong path. The easy thing would have been to not post to my blog today and pretend it didn't happen, but I am not going to do that either. I am trying to take a look at why it happened so maybe I can change my behavior.

First off, I had to do lunch early today, around 10:30am (my job is just unpredictable like that). Then I had a little free time and stopped off to do a little Christmas shopping and bought a box of 100 calorie almonds. But instead of eating 1 pack, I ate 3! Almonds and nuts in general are just a red light food for me, I can eat nuts like there is no tomorrow. Now that was bad enough, but later I ate 5 boneless BBQ wings.. Now I am actually sitting here miserable and feeling angry at myself for being so weak.

I think the protein shakes are just not enough for me anymore, the do not keep me full and by lunch I was starving. Now granted I did keep to about one cup at lunch. Tomorrow I will try to do better.

Here are some things I will try to correct.

1~ protein shakes are out for now, unless they serve as a snack.
2~ I am going to begin packing my lunch again (I have gotten away from that)
3~ I am going to make myself eat every 3 hours to keep my energy up
4~ I will bring one bag of almonds with me as a snack and leave the rest at home.
5~ Increase my water by at least 2 bottles tomorrow

Monday, December 14, 2009

Christmas in New Orleans

Over the weekend, I played tourist in New Orleans with my granddaughters. We first visited a beautiful life size gingerbread house built inside the Ritz.

You could walk through the house and the walls were icing and decorated with candies. The outside of the house was real gingerbread paneling.
The books on the bookcase were made of chocolate. My girls were understandably in awe that they were inside a real life honest to goodness gingerbread house. LOL

We visited an area called Miracle on Fulton Street where they have beautifully decorated trees, reindeer to feed and New Orleans style snow (bubbles falling through blowers).

Then we rode the streetcar uptown to the Garden District to view the magnificent homes decorated for the holidays. What a sight they were! We purposely stayed in the downtown/uptown areas. My girls have lived 4 years now with nightmares and everyday reminders of losing their homes. I wanted to be sure to avoid all the desolate areas. Many areas on New Orleans are still ghost towns filled with abandoned flooded homes.

We ate at one of our favorite local restaurants. One thing about Cajun food, there are very little choices that are healthy. Our menus are filled with rich sauces, fried foods and starches. I finally settled on a seafood pasta and when it arrived, I could only eat a few bites of seafood before I felt that restriction tightening inside my chest. I pushed the plate away and didn't think about food the rest of the evening. I was able to order like everyone else, I just ate less. What a wonderfully liberating experience!

p.s. My exercising has all but stopped. I realize my losses will not come without the exercise, but I cannot seem to get myself to the gym. I need to work out!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Monday blahs

I am fighting a chest cold this week and can't take the huge pills. I have to take the liquids and they are so full of sugar! I haven't lost or gained anything just sitting at same number on the scale. I am journaling my food everyday now, but not exercising until I get rid of the congestion in my chest. Last night my band felt so tight that I could only eat a couple bites, I wonder if mucus can cause band restriction?

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Is this the way the band works?

Yesterday, I had a very hectic day. I ate breakfast and drank a protein shake for lunch because I was rushed. Went to a funeral and then straight to a wedding without a chance to eat anything for dinner. At the wedding reception, those food trays started circulating. First, let me say that the protein shake really lasted much longer than usual, this was 6-7 hours later. I tried to survey the foods that were available and found two soups. Remember we are cajun! lol One was gumbo and the second was a seafood bisque with shrimp and crab. I choose the seafood bisque and began eating it slowly, being careful to chew, chew,chew the shrimp. I ended up eating about 1/3 of a small bowl. Afterwards I tried a few things here and there, taking time to chew. It was not long before I felt this tightening in my chest. I was so afraid I was going to have my first pb/sliming. I stopped eating and by the time the evening was over it was gone. Social situations where you are distracted are very difficult times to hear that band when it's telling me to stop, I am glad I did hear it!

Is this how the band is supposed to work? Is that tightening feeling its way of saying stop or slow down? Is it the band that gave me that full feeling for so many hours after my protein shake? I would love to hear from you experienced banders !

P.S. I had a wonderful NSV last night. Family who had not seen me since banding were so complimentary about my weightloss! I am a long way from my goal weight but lately with Mr. Scale is being so stubborn! Their comments renewed my commitment this morning!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Yes Santa, I was a Good Girl today

I had one of the best days of my healthy lifestyle to date! I started food journaling today, that was a huge step for me. I hope it gets easier as time goes on. I made good food choices, drank more than enough water and exercised. I must admit, I like the feeling! My newly found restriction is already starting to fade. I called my doctors office and moved my next fill appointment up to 3 weeks out. With the holidays I need to utilize all the tools available!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Journaling

I have recently surrendered to the fact that I need to commit to Journaling to complete my transition to a healthier lifestyle. I am a food addict and I need to utilize every tool available to me. I read recently: The August 2008 issue of the American Journal of Preventive Medicine, published about a powerful tool people can use to lose weight. Dieters in the study who used it lost twice as much weight. That tool is a food journal. Fellow blogger, Sally's Journal has already discovered this tool and contributes much her success with her lapband to her journaling.

What should I include in my journal? Here is a list for me to start with:

1) food quantities (ok I'm going to do some measuring, at least for a time)
2) measurements, maybe once a week
3) my moods, (stressed,hurried,angry,depressed etc)
4) my exercise

I am committed to doing everything I can to overcome this terrible addiction.

I would be very interested in your thoughts on journaling. Do you journal? What do you record in it? Is it helpful to you?

p.s. I do not have a desk job and I am very mobile during the day. I decided to make use of my smartphone and I started a separate blog to use as my journal, I can sent posts to it from my phone and update it whenever I need it. Wish me luck!

Finally some movement!

Mr. Scale has finally budged since my recent fill. Of course, I do realize that having to stay on liquids, then mushies has definitely helped. The -2 pounds has given me a renewed commitment. I was really feeling frustrated and helpless. Last week for Thanksgiving, I didn't make 100% good choices, but it was not like my pre-banded days either. I didn't gain and that was a victory to me!

Now that I have some restriction, I am trying to make more effort to stay on course. I haven't exercised in a week, so today I went into the gym, did 15 mins on the elliptical and 35 mins/2miles on treadmill @ 3.5. I have slowed up a little on my speed since I skipped a week. I drank my protein shake one hour before and sipped a bottle of water during my exercise.

I have noticed some differences in what I can eat. Yesterday, I had a small individual honey flavored Greek yogurt and I was full until lunch. I had a protein shake for lunch and that lasted until dinner. Dinner was 1/2 cup tuna salad, I had an evening snack of 1/2 indiv cottage cheese. Wow what a difference. I spent the day running to and from appts and that keep me from thinking about head hunger.

Protein shakes are not good to stay on long term, but they are great meal replacements when I am rushed and don't have time to sit and chew my food properly. Besides some of them are yummy and feeds my chocolate fetish! lol

Monday, November 30, 2009

Fill #2 & restriction


It has been 3 weeks since my first fill. I felt absolutely nothing from the first one. My doctor says it takes most patients up to 4 fills before the band actually starts to work for them. With my first fill, I didn't feel any differently than before my banding. I could eat anything and as much as wanted. My appetite was as strong as before too.

Hopefully Fill #2 will give me something to work with. I now have 5cc in my 10cc band. I felt this one right away. I felt the tightening immediately. When I drank the little cup of water I belched the whole time. I was a little worried at first because this feeling was so completely different from the first when there was nothing. I have 3 days of liquids now before I can start slowly adding foods back into my diet. My next fill appt is December 28th. I am happy with that since it will right before the start of the New Year!

p.s. During my fill yesterday, my doc suggested I try either yogurt or protein shakes for breakfast. He says eating cold things help with a tighter band, while eating hot/warm will loosen it up. Hence, more restriction for longer period of time during the day. I am really not much for such sweet things for breakfast, but I am going to give it a try. Eating cold foods for breakfast would be easier if it weren't so darn cold outside.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

just trying to hang on

I called to move my 2nd fill appt up to Monday after Thanksgiving. There is absolutely nothing that I can't eat and to be perfectly honest, after having my first fill there was no difference. I know that I have a band in my tummy because I paid for it, but I do not feel any difference today than the day I went in to have surgery.

One of my favorite banders on here is Sally. She gives great advice on what has been successful for her and I am trying to incorporate some of the things she did. Journaling my food was never good for me, I tried it with WW and always failed. My job is very mobile and carrying a notebook is not practical. What I realized today is that I have a great tool for logging my foods, my Smart phone! I don't have a diet program on it but I don't really need one. Just a word program to write down my foods that I eat to make me accountable for goes into my mouth. Happy Turkey Day to everyone!

Friday, November 20, 2009

How does that fat leave anyway?

I was very curious exactly how the fat leaves our bodies. Today I did a little digging and this what happens to the FAT

Some of the fuel you use for maintaining normal body functions and for exercise comes from two ready sources: glucose and triglycerides. Both circulate in the blood, so they are easily available as fuel sources, even though they are in relatively short supply. More abundant supplies are found in the liver and stored fat cells.

If the demands of your activity are greater than what circulating fat and glucose can supply, your body will need to dip into the stored energy in the liver and fat cells. Hormones in the body activate an enzyme called lipase that tells the fat cells to release triglycerides. The triglycerides are broken down into glycerol and free fatty acids and enter the bloodstream. The liver recycles the glycerol, and the muscles use the free fatty acids for energy. When the free fatty acids are consumed by working muscles and other tissues, they are converted to heat, water, carbon dioxide and adenosine triphosphate, or ATP. Your body releases heat through your skin, water as you sweat and ; carbon dioxide as you breathe it converts the energy in the bonds of ATP into energy your body can use.

BOTTOM LINE: The fat leaves our bodies by SWEATING and BREATHING, both of which we have to workout to accomplish!

Friday

I have done cardio everyday, even changed it up from doing run/walking on treadmill to elliptical machine. Last week I added a little strength training to the mix. I walk with my husband for an hour in the evenings.

I don't weigh/measure my portions because I HATE IT. I did that with WW and I just don't like it. But I have started using a small plate and try to eat more protein than anything.

Mr. Scale has not budged. No Gain, No loss. Just basically stuck on the same 20 lbs.

My last fill did nothing at all and my next fill is not until Dec.8th. I am soooo frustrated and just plain disgusted with my lack of progress :(((

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

The Bandster Quiz

How long have you been banded? 2 months 3 days!


What was your highest pre-band weight? / Current weight now? / Total lost to date? 209 is my highest/ I am currently 189 / Total lost since surgery 20 pounds!


What is your best "go-to" food to get in your protein? I have started to really like the honey flavor greek yogurt in the little 4 pks. When I was on vacation, I took a box of Prescript fit cinnamon protein bars and it worked great for keeping my energy level up so I wouldn't be too hungry at meals, they were yummy!

What is your favorite protein brand/shake? PrescriptFit Choclate with Peanut Butter flavoring, it takes like a liquid reese cup


What food do you miss the most now being post-band? Pizza definately, although I have eaten the toppings of pizza, I am afraid to try to crust.

What was your favorite "mushy" food? cottage cheese

What was your worst PB experience? I have not had one yet, thank Gawd!


What has been the hardest part of this journey so far for you? I have no restriction and am having to survive on regular dieting and exercise until I get more fills, so far that is my hardest.

What is your best NSV to date? I don't really have one, snif,snif

What is your top non-weight goal for your band? Just to be healthy.

What is your goal weight or size? My goal weight is 140-150?...I'm sure that will change up/down

What band "rule" do you live by (i.e. don't cheat on)? I have cheated on all of the lol

What band "rule" do you not follow as much or aren't so good at? not drinking water when i eat

What is your goal "reward"? adding some years to my life will be award enough for me.

In the spirit of Thanksgiving being right around the corner, what are you most thankful for, post-band? My family

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

YAY! For a good Day!

I beat myself up often enough when I screw up and have bad days. Today I thought it would be nice to pat myself on the back for a good day. I made good choices in my meals yesterday and walked an hour in the cool air with my husband. What a wonderful walk we had. We talked about this and that, I mean really talked. So often we get caught up in television, work or housecleaning that we do not really talk and LISTEN to each other's concerns and experiences. My husband is my soul mate, I love him dearly and thoroughly enjoyed our time together. Plus the added benefit of having someone to talk to during my walk, I looked at my watch and we had walked an hour, it seems so much less. It was a GOOD DAY!

Monday, November 16, 2009

living to eat

Everyone knows that the city of New Orleans is known for its food. As long as I can remember our holidays have centered around food. As a child, I can still remember Christmas morning after the gifts, everyone heading for dining room for a huge breakfast, followed by my Mom's unbelievable spread of food for lunch and dinner. She cooked a pot of gumbo for Christmas that could literally feed a whole block! That same spread is offered at every family member's house we visit that day.

Then after the holidays when everyone else is concentrating on losing weight for their New Years resolutions, we have MARDI GRAS. Starting on the Twelfth Night or Three Kings Day, the King CAKES start to circulate. We only have them between Jan.6-Mardi Gras day. Also during that time, the pre-Mardi Gras Parade season begins. My family does the BBQ, Hot dogs, Corn Dogs, Fried Chicken and Jambalaya at the parades which begin 2 wks before Mardi Gras day or Fat Tuesday. Fat Tuesday of course is the famous day of stuffing yourself as much as possible before Lent.

Lent is an easy time for us dieters here in the Big Easy because that is when every one here starts their "NEW YEARS DIETING".

After Lent, our seafood seasons begin. Crawfish boils with piles of crawfish and buttered corn, shrimp boils with more of the same. This goes on all the way till the summer when we begin the summer BBQ's.

This year, I have to find away to incorporate these century old family traditions into my new healthier lifestyle. In my world pigging out and eating unhealthy has become expected at our get-togethers. My willpower will be tested and tested again each weekend. My challenge this New Years, will be to find ways to get my brain to understand that I can enjoy them but only in moderation.

That is easier said then done when the arouma of King Cake will soon be everywhere I go. I realize that my weight problem is a product of our culture as it is my own failure to control my poor food choices and portions.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Well, I had to work today. Hate working Saturdays, but I get a day off during the week in return and those are so nice too! I forced myself to the gym today. I gotta tell you, I can lie to myself sooo bad talking myself out of going, I can't go cause of this..or I'll wait till later...or after that. I finally said, well I will just pop in for a light workout. Just walk 30 mins on the treadmill. Well as usual, once I am there and start working out...I am good. I ended up doing a 5K, this time took me 55mins, but i walked most of it and I am proud of myself for showing up there on a saturday. Tomorrow the weather is supposed to be super. I hope to do some walking outside and then bring my granddaughters shopping for some dresses for their Holiday pictures. I treat them to a new outfit every year for their pictures.

Eating was another trouble spot for me today. Breakfast I did great. But Lunch< I just could not get full! First I did a small blueberry greek yogurt, it was delicious. I sat there awhile afterwards and still did not feel full. So I ate 6oz of tuna and finally ended up with a bowl of cereal. It was awful! I drank water also, just could not get full :(

Friday, November 13, 2009

TGIF

I almost hate writing TGIF today. I have to work tomorrow and that kind of takes the air out of the Friday party balloon. I did well again today, my eating is finally under control again. I normally do 45 mins with the treadmill set to manual. Starting today, I am using the 5k circuit program. I did some light jogging/walking and it took me about 50 mins to complete a 5k. That seems very long to me, but now I have a starting point. The problem with spending so much time on cardio is that I really don't have the time to do any strength training. I guess I will have to increase my gym time to allow it, but that would mean staying over an hour each day and I really wanted to keep it to an hour. Anyway, the weekend is here and Sunday I hope to get the family and head out for a long walk on the beach if its not too windy.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

One Day at a time

Today, I finally made an extreme effort to get back on track. I made me a veggie omelet with a little chicken for breakfast, had yogurt for lunch and will have a small soup for dinner. I went to the gym today and walked/ran for 45 mins and then did 15 mins on the dreaded stairmaster. I hate that stairmaster, I don't know why. But I do think its important to mix up different cardio types. I don't want to get bored doing the same things everyday. I miss my walks around my neighborhood in the evenings, but it is too dark and unsafe without any street lights.

Anyway, I am feeling better about my eating today. Hopefully tomorrow I can keep it up. ONE DAY AT A TIME

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

vacation

I am really having trouble getting back into my healthy lifestyle since returning from vacation. I did exercise a few times each week while on my cruise, which is way different than my old life. I gained 4lbs during the 3 wks of my vacation. Now I am just trying to get back into that routine that I started before I left. Walking after work is more difficult now because it is so dark when I get home and there are not many street lights in my neighborhood. That means going to the gym, I have never been able to make the gym thing stick. I hate way too much today. I need my willpower back. I had my first fill Monday and I cannot even tell. I need to keep trying until I find a way to fit my workouts back into my life.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Taking the Band on Vacation


So far vacationing with my new lap band has not been too difficult. I am still feeling some restriction, that became quite obvious at the airport when I tried to eat too much and became full after only a few bites. I brought some protein bars along with me and that has helped a great deal. We are staying in Portland, Maine at a quaint bed and breakfast tonight. I ate steamed lobster and clams tonight, so I got plenty protein. It was delicious. I even got in some great exercise today hiking in the mountains of New Hampshire. The only problem I experienced so far with my band is some tightening in my chest area after sitting so long in the airport and on the plane. It really hurt last night but seems to be getting better today.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

flying high

Today, Hubby and I start our 3-wk vacation that we have saved a very long time to do. Already there are airport problems. Besides the fact that I HATE to fly, we will have a 5 hour layover because they cancelled our original connecting flight due to insufficient passengers.


So what does a person do with a 5 hour layover at an airport? Prebanded days, I would use the opportunity to fill up on junk food. I hope I can change this habit, I have brought along some protein bars in my bag, I hope that will keep those munchies at bay. If not, I will at least try to make better choices. Tomorrow I will be in Vermont.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

4 Wks & 20 lbs GONE


Today I reached four weeks since being banded. I decided to list the changes that I have made in my new Healthy lifestyle.

1. My clothes are baggy. I could be a smaller size, but I don't want to invest in new clothes just yet.

2. I have more energy and even have a little bounce in my step.

3. I am eating healthier.

4. I have more confidence in myself and I have no doubt that I can reach my next goal.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Preparation and Planning


Yesterday I had the most challenging day I have had since being banded. I attended a birthday party 90 minutes from home for my granddaughter. It was held at one of those children party centers and I failed horribly. In my pre-banded days, I would have let it turn into a reason to give up all together and gain back all the 20 lbs I lost and more.

Instead, I am going to try to live and learn, pick myself up and work through the hurdle. I started out doing well, I had a healthy breakfast. I was told there was a little concession stand so I figured I could find something, even if it was just a hamburger patty or salad. WRONG! Only food there were hot dogs, nachos, white bread sandwiches loaded with mayo. I did buy some water and tried sipping it all day. We left home at 10am and now it's 2pm and I'm starving. Finally all my willpower died and ate 8 *1/4* finger sandwiches, which in itself wouldn't have been entirely bad, but of course I let myself have a piece of birthday cake, granted it was a smaller piece than I normally would have taken. I did no exercises yesterday either.

I beat myself up about overeating the entire 90 minute drive home, refused to eat dinner, took a xanax and went to sleep. I was miserable.

How the hell am I going to make it through 3 wks of vacationing if I cannot control myself at a one day outing? I am trying to learn from it and be better prepared the next time. Maybe pack a protein shake and some veggies in a small lunch bag. Next time I go to a child's birthday party, I will go with the assumption there will be no healthy foods and bring my own!

Today is another day and I have determined NOT to let yesterday send me into a eating binge.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

garage sale

Yesterday, I decided to have a garage sale to get rid of all those clothes that no longer fit. I refuse to keep them, I am NOT going back to that weight again. I spent the last few days cleaning all the closets in my house to add items to sell. Before the day was over, I would actually have to remind myself to eat, that is quite a difference for me. My weightloss seems to have stalled the last couple of days with only 1/2 pound before my first goal. I have 6 more days before I leave on my 3 wk vacation and I am determined to reach my goal before then. Even if it means more protein shakes lol

Monday, October 5, 2009

cleansing


New Orleans is well known for rain that appears without warning. It has been raining here for two solid days. Sunday, I spent the day cleaning between watching football games. Football is difficult for me because prior to my banding, it would include junk food, beer and sweets. I didn't do badly at all. I avoided the beer and talked my husband into grilling before the game. Today it is raining again, my husband and I elected to drive to the gym to use the treadmill for our morning walk. I was very pleased with myself for two reasons. 1. normally the rain would have given me an excuse to bail on exercise and 2. I even added some light jogging on the treadmill. Looks like the rain did not derail my journey along my new healthier lifestyle.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Mr. Scale


I have been on enough diet programs in my lifetime to know that weighing every single day, is NOT a good idea. The ups and downs can wreak havoc with our emotions. When I know that I did not make good choices or bailed on my exercise, I hide from Mr. Scale. He becomes nothing more than a dust magnet. When I have been a good girl, I run for Mr. Scale every morning when I wake-up, sometimes several times a day. Weight Watchers and most other programs stress the importance of only weighing once a week, to avoid those tiny bumps that occur during the week. To be honest deep inside my brain, I agree. But that is not stopping me from jumping on Mr. Scale every morning since being banded. When Mr.Scale is nice to me that morning, I fly through my day like I won the lottery. On the other hand, when that evil Mr. Scale goes in the wrong direction, I drag around like I lost my best friend.

Why do I do this to myself? I think that I still hope my band will be the magic wand that will change me overnight, even though I know better. Whatever the reason, I need to find a way to become friends with Mr. Scale, so that he can guide me through my new healthy lifestyle instead of being a roadblock.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Our own voices

Since the day I started my two week Pre-Op diet, I have gone 100% into my usual diet mode. All of my fellow banders are very familiar with my "diet mode". All of them started and ended the same for me. I pick the diet of the month/year and I buy all the allowed foods and then I start dieting & exercising. The first few days I lose my "water weight" and it doesn't take very long before that little fat voice in my head starts rationalizing cheating. "One piece of that chocolate cake at some one's birthday party will probably not show. I tell them to just give me very small piece." Then I start convincing myself that it isn't good for our bodies to exercise EVERY DAY, after all we have to give our MUSCLES time to heal. So I don't go to the gym or walk that day. Sometimes I have lost over 35 pounds before the little voice starts, and sometimes I will barely make through the first week (depending on the diet).

Up to today, my excitement at seeing my weight loss on the scale has kept that old voice at bay. Today, I am fighting that voice. I have walked every single morning since my first day of pre-Op diet, with the exception of the day before/after my surgery, and today? I let that little voice tell me I deserved a day off. No, I wasn't tired, my port or incisions were not hurting, I wasn't so busy that I didn't have time, I just DID NOT go. I'm scared! What if all this success that I have experienced is just the same ole same? I have struggled with my own inside voice all day to stay on my healthy eating. I have experienced hunger so much today, not real hunger, Brain hunger! Today, water is not working. Exercise is not working. The protein shakes are not working. I am going along on my own steam without any restriction until my first fill November 2nd and I am petrified that I will not be strong enough to make it that long!

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

cruise=food


My husband and I love to travel. One our most favorite are cruises. We have come to a time in our life when we are lucky enough the have the funds, time & health to do them. October 17th we set off on our next adventure for 3 weeks, 1 week will be spent exploring the northeast. Vermont, Maine, Cape Cod, Salem, Plymouth Rock and Boston. Then we leave on a fabulous 2 wk cruise from Boston. We will enjoy ports at each of the Virgin Isles, Guatemala and Mexico. I can't wait.

I have always taken for granted that a cruise had to mean overeating and gaining weight, in the past I have gone on cruises fully intending to eat and drink as much as i could. This time I will cruising during my new HEALTHY lifestyle. I have given alot of thought and planning on how to accomplish this. First of all, I have got to stop thinking that a vacation must include over-indulging to be fun. I have to stop associating events in my life with food.

Here are some of my ideas. Right now my husband and I walk together 90 minutes each morning and 60 minutes in the evening. So my thoughts are to include a walk on the ships walking track at sunrise and after dinner whenever possible. I also plan to visit their spa/gym each day for some bodysculpting and maybe even take a few new classes that I may like to try. That will take care of my exercises for the trip.

The big thing with me on cruises is that there is food everywhere and of course the alcohol. I will simply have to stay away from the alcohol because I only like those fruity drinks that are loaded with sugar. Food? My thoughts are to try to stick with seafood dishes and veggies. I have to be careful with their soups since most of them are fatty cream type soups.

Incorporating my new HEALTHY lifestyle during travel has to be accomplished if I am to make this journey work for new life!

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

2 weeks & I weigh 15 1/2 less!

Today is two weeks since I have started my journey towards a new, healthier life. I have been thinking lately about what exactly I would like from this journey. I definately do not want to look like an anorexic model nor am I trying to look like some beautiful porn star (like that is possible without lots of ps haha)

I want to lose enough weight to be considered 'HEALTHY". Enough to slow or stop the threat of diabetes and its complications. Perhaps maybe drop my blood pressure meds,?? I don't know if the last one is possible because my doctors says weight is not the only contribution to high BP, hereditary is also.

I am going to mark this journey at one week/10 pound intervals. I need to come up with some sort of reward system at each 10 lbs. Something NON-food. Maybe a fish bowl with little treats, clothing, shoes, etc.

I have been walking 2x a day now for the last week, I don't think it will be possible to keep that up when I go back to work so I will have to work out another schedule.

I am soooo happy with my life today. THANK YOU GOD!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

one week later

My one week checkup at the doctor shows I lost 12 1/2 lbs. Now I am sure alot of that is water weight, I assume that as I add sold foods to my diet, that my weight loss will slow. But I now think that my Turkey Day Challenge goal of 20 lbs is doable....I am definately excited.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

ONEDERLAND!

For a bandster that is when your weight gets down from the 200's to the 100;s. My scale screamed 199.5 today! I am sooo excited. Of course I realize thats only 1/2 lbs...but I will take it! thats 10 lbs so far and I am even more motivated. I have joined a weightloss challenge, where you set your own goal and try to reached it, in this goal its turkey day. My goal is try to lost 20 lbs by thanksgiving. At this point it seems a reasonable goal since my cruise is included in that time.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

omg the gas!

n walking two or three times a day trying to get rid of the gas, it hurts much more the incisions. but i have lost a couple pounds, I'm sure its more than what is on the scale now because I have gotten rid of IV fluids yet..but scale says....202 now, im hoping to drop it 3 more so I will be in onederland before the hunger starts coming back.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I did it!

I'm actually banded now. When i went into surgery today, I was 202 lbs. Lost 7 lbs. I am going to try to fight the urge to weigh again until I go back the doct appt in one week, Sept 22nd. I dont want the fluid from the surgery to disappoint mel. The pain is not too bad, I have been taking gasX since i left teh hospital and liquid pain stuff. It tastes awful yuck. The surgeon also fixed a hernia that I never knew I had. Last xmas I thought that I might, but It never really bothered me that often.

I am on all water an clear liquids for 2 days.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

liquid diets

OMG, trying to drink nothing but liquids is soooo hard. I drink one and say wow I'm full and then others start cooking/eating and my willpower does what it always did before, dwindles to -10. I hope I can at get through the next 3 days so my surgery will be easier.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

shake it baby!

My doctor introduced me to protein shakes by Prescript. They taste pretty good, so far I have only tried the chocolate and crunch protein bars. I have doing the protein shakes a week now and lost 4 lbs. I realize most of it will probably be water-weight, but I expected to lose more. I also walked 5 of 7 days for an hour. Well my surgery is Tuesday (5 more days), so there is still time to lose more before then.

Friday, September 4, 2009

Day 4 pre-op diet

Friday! 4 whole days on my liquid protein diet before my lapband surgery. Oh, I haven't been perfect for four days. I ate a 1/2 of a taco and some trail mix yesterday. Monday I ate 3 pieces of really cheap pizza, i still can't believe I through my diet out the window for that cheap pizza. But, I still feel like I made progress since I used to eat that pizza along with popeyes, huge breakfast all in one day!

I think I have lost 2 lbs. That's what my scale says. I think I will go by the scale on Monday since that will be a whole week.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

My new life journey

On July 26, 2009, i turned 50! OMG, I hate thinking it, I hate saying it and I'm damn sure that I don't want to look it!

I have fought weight loss battles all my life. I have ridden the rollercoaster of losing weight.....gaining it back.....losing it again...and each time I promised myself that I would NOT gain it back because it was soooo difficult to lose it. I have had a tummy tuck and now I'm taking one more drastic step to avoid hereditary diabetes...............LAP-BAND

I have started a liquid protein diet Sept 1st in preparation for surgery Sept.l5th.